You

•December 27, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I thought about you today.

Just like I did yesterday and the day before that.

You have been on my mind everyday since the day you left.

I love you Jenn forever in my heart.

Jane

Forever Embedded In My Heart

•December 13, 2012 • Leave a Comment

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Jenn,

I was missing you a lot. Summer wrote an essay at school and in it mentioned you passing away 3 years ago.  I sent a picture of it to J & C. You’d be so proud of her.  She got her report card and got all A’s. But the essay she wrote made me realize that even though she doesn’t talk about you, you are always on her mind. Then it got me all in a funky mood and I went through the entire blog reading every entry that you wrote.  I tortured myself by reliving everything in my mind through your words but at the same time it made me vividly remember your voice.  I really do miss you.  So much has changed and theres people I wish you could’ve met thats currently really important in my life.  You would’ve loved this one specific person.  Well babe, Im starting to just ramble now.  I love you soooooo much!

XOXO

Jane

Another One Has Gone

•January 11, 2012 • Leave a Comment

While Jenn was alive we met another mother who was battling a rare cancer.  She had actually gone into remission toward the end of Jenn’s life but early last year it had come back and on Friday night she had lost her battle and had left her loved ones to be with God.

It just brings back alot of old emotions from when Jenn died and I feel like I’m living it all over again.

I did not know her on a very personal level and I had never met her but we had corresponded via email and facebook.  She was always so brave and pro-active in beating her cancer.  When Jenn was alive I had wished that her gung ho attitude would rub off on her.

There is now another child in the world that has lost their mother at a young age.  It’s so sad and so depressing.  All this news of cancer has such a devastating impact on one’s soul.

God bless everyone who’s lost a loved one to cancer.  I feel you.

3rd Christmas with out you

•December 23, 2011 • Leave a Comment

I’ve been thinking about you alot lately.  I still miss you immensely.  If I close my eyes and think hard enough I can still hear your voice in my head.  I’m kind of sad that I didn’t take more pictures of you and with you.  At the time I was trying to be respectful of your wishes and not take pictures but in the back of my mind I knew I would regret it.  I love you and miss you so much!

Summer is doing incredibly well.  She’s doing well at after school, art school, and violin.  You would be so proud of her.  You probably already know without me telling you.  She is also very close to paternal side of the family and we are trying our best to make her life happy and comfortable.  Kisses from here on earth.  Can’t wait to see and touch you again.

Jane

1 year

•November 22, 2010 • 1 Comment

It’s 1 year today.  It was a Sunday, you didn’t talk much but we were by your side the entire time.  Who knew that you would be leaving us that night.  Now here we are 1 year later still mourning you.  I love you Jenn so much.  Have a happy 1st birthday in Heaven.  I miss you tons.

XOXO

Jane

Avoiding

•November 16, 2010 • 1 Comment

It’s that time of year to celebrate your first birthday in Heaven but I’ve been avoiding it.  I still have not come to terms with your death and I know I never will.  Of course there are many days that I don’t dwell on it and I can go on living life smiling but in the back of my head all my memories of you still haunt me.  Your friends want to get together to celebrate your Heavenly birthday and I know  you deserve to be celebrated and remembered but I’m not too excited about it.  I’m dreading the next few days because this coming Monday is the day God took you away from us.

Jane

Thank you

•November 16, 2010 • 1 Comment

Dear Summer,

Thank you for being such an amazing child.  Thank you for being sweet, caring, well behaved, studious, and overall wonderful.  You are a joy to raise and everyone loves you so much.  No matter whatever life throws at you, you have a HUGE family and an infinite amount of aunties and uncles that’ll be there to back you up and catch you when you fall.  I know that no one in this world can ever replace umma but know that your family loves you unconditionally.  You are our blood and bones.  I love you with my entire soul.  Sarang hae baby.

Jane Eemo

 
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